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This is what my week will look like if i don't go home this weekend!

Saturday:
Finish getting sources for English paper
Work on said paper (get at least one page done)
write out history notes (study guide)

Sunday:
Church
Get 1-2 pages done on English paper
Go over Political  Science notes

Monday:
Can take Political Science Final (1:00pm)
Study the already written out history notes (study guide)
Study for Sociology (study guide and notes)
Write 2-3 pages for English paper

Tuesday:
History Final (10:30 am)
Finish English paper
Look over Sociology notes (and study guide)
*pack*

Wednesday:
My 20th Birthday!
*pack*
Look at the English paper and then print it off
Study the Sociology notes and study guide
Go to dinner with God mom and family

Thursday:
Sociology Final (8:00am)
English Final (10:30 am)
go back to room and clean
load up car
Go home!
And go out to dinner with family!

She's talking. My grandma. and she's getting better :3

Thats all for now. THe end of the semester is coming up
and i'm packing
and such
<3

THere's a hot guy at my work that sings. It's prettymuch drooltastic :D

She's back on the ventalotor. (breathing machiene)
She was doing so well yesterday.
She SMILED at me when i was babbling on about college and movies and tv shows.

So i'm on Spring Break. Working back at the Bird. I'm not excited for easter like i normally am.

My grandma is in the hospital.
And she's been there for a week.
Apparently she has a blood infection now. First it was Pneumonia.
She had been on a breathing machine. they took it off and now she's doing worse.

I'm so scared. I don't want to lose her not yet. I want her to be at my wedding and stuff.
And i have to go back out to Kearney. (on easter)
I keep praying and hoping that soon she'll be able to go home and by the time i come home for summer she'll be 100% healthy like she was. And we can bake cookies and stuff.

But ....
i have to stop.
I am crying to hard to write anymore.
Please keep my family and grandma in your prayers.

Hana dropped to the ground and hoped they hadn't seen her. Oh god. This can't be true. How could he be with her now? After what happened between them. She had told him (finally) and now she see's him with her. She hoped her hair hide how red her face had become and the tear in her throat were beigining to push through.

She wondered how the hell could love hurt this much. Wasn't love supposed feel could. Instead this felt like someone had reached down her throat with chopsticks and grabbed her heart then pulled it out through said throat.
~
Carrie said it was over done D:
tell me what you think.

I'm updating
Random cross post.
I'm really kinda pissed off.
I've lost Elise for god knows why.
And feel like i'm slowly losing who i am meant to beee~
~Le sigh~
So
64 days.
And counting.
I can't wait.
I really can't.
It's a chance to start over. And meet new people.
I love my people here (my boys, work ppl  and Annie <3)
But since High School has ended i feel disconnected and alone.
Not like the same person i was/am.
YOu may disagree and say we've been busy. I'm poor.
But a text only takes 5 seconds max.
~le sigh~
I'm back in a emo mood.
you know how to reach me.

I am slowly losing me.
I'm no longer as social as i used to be. I understand that school and work are important but i feel discontected and alone. Even by the people that are still in omaha.
Well i still have my work friends. :)

But i can't talk to them about boys and my emo-ness (well Lainey i can but she never works)
I want to run off to i don't know anywhere and just start over and go back to old lindsey. Not this lindsey whose disconnected and alone.
~Edit~
I'm looking at UNK for next semester. I might do it just to be ablel to start over and meet new people.

I don't want to leave.

:(

I have a suitcase full of new (and very cute) clothing.

I have a memory card full (almost) of cool star wars pics.

I have a college that i want to go to.

I have a new career thought running thru my head.

I feel discontected from back home though.

Everyone is off haveing a college time. And i'm stuck. at metro doing nothing with my self.

Ueg. I need to go out. Do something with someone. Anyone (minus my stalker)

~idea~

She could feel it. The pain starting at her abdomen and moving all over, she couldn't see anything. Not one damn thing. It was black. Accasionally she could hear someones voice, shouting for a flower. His voice sounded very familler. Her eyes struggled to stay open ... or were they closed she couldn't tell anymore. Maybe that was because the black she saw.

Despite that she tried to open her eyes. She decided that they indeed were closed. When she manged to open them she saw black still. But somehow this clamed her. Knowing that she indeed maybe dead. But how...she couldn't feel that pain anymore and it didn't hurt to breath. Maybe Sanzo shot her?

Wait. Who was Sanzo? And why would he shot her...and why did she in fact still only see black. She heard nothing now too. Now she didn't hear the sound of someone shouting for a flower. Nothing not the ruffling of leaves or the still ness of air. This made her scared.

SHe stopped and took a deep breath. Calm down. Relax and think of something that made her happy. If this was death or prugtory or some form of torture let it come. Let herself leave her body and think of something happy. She sighed and let the green eyes calm her as she slowly slid from her panic.

I had a good dream last night
It was me and lauren just lounging on my couch talking like we used to do back in the day. I don't remember what we were talking about but i do rememeber the end where this was teh conversation.

me - Dream Lauren you telll real Lauren to write me ok?
And dream Lauren laughed at me like real Lauren does when i say silly things but said ok.

Then i woke up feeling blue cause i know she prolley didn't have the same dream but i know she knows we all miss her.

:)

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19570787/

He's going to die we all know it.
Although if he doesn't Ginny could as like a poly...or something. I had this whole theory on HP7 and i forgot it. I'l post it when i find it again!